一個人出走的天空 ::

偷偷地出走

Posted 2008/10/04 23:36, Filed under: 冰 ❤ 冰冷世界

我不知道我的決定是不是對的，我也不清楚以後的路是否真的如此走。

或許我累了，我想歇一下。

卻，又會杞人憂天，擔心這擔心那。好久了都無法摒除這去年而生的惡習，已經忘懷了什麽是天不怕地不怕的感覺。

這一次的任性，會不會又帶來另一個災難？或許我想太多了。

還是我真的如此貪心希望得到更多，反而器滿則傾，導致更糟糕的後果？

不懂，就讓我任性多一次。

我想偷偷地出走，尋找屬於自己的一片天空。

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★ Yenny 2008/10/05 09:10 Delete Reply

偶尔放纵自己的任性，否则永远不知道自己的任性会为自己带来怎么样的结局。
记得，寻找自己的天空的途中，别迷失了自己。
★ 狗犬 2008/10/05 09:14 Delete Reply

既然已经选择了出走，
那就要坚持努力下去哦...
可是要是真的觉得走错路了还是可以回头的，
趁还没有来不及调头吧...只要自己不后悔曾经的选择，
加油哦...
★ 闻舒 2008/10/05 20:27 Delete Reply

走吧，记得家在哪儿就好。;p

Meditation

Posted 2008/09/23 17:55, Filed under: 冰 ❤ 冰冷世界

I'm not in a bad mood, I just wanna grumble, that's all.

原来从来都没有原来，
原来我一直都很喜欢运用原来。

A thousand times of assuming it's truth, will it be truth then?
A thousand times of encouraging, will it defeat the fears?

一滴一滴泛起了涟漪，
或许再一次的牵连会掀起浪涛。

When there's no stress, there's no motivation.
While there are lots of stress, there's no motivation as well.

难道这就叫做器满则倾？
过多不好，太少不到，如何准确地拿捏？
我一点也不知道。

Perhaps it's time to rest. Perhaps it's time to go away.
Perhaps it's time to forget. Perhaps it's time to fly away.

穹苍泛起浅橘色的云霄，
梢来连连诗意，
这一刻起，
或许才是最好的回忆。

Who knows everything will be fine in the end?
Who knows there won't be any curse appeared if hates occurred?

就这样，
懒懒散散地，
抵抗无谓的敌。

See how I'll die, in the end of this month.

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★ 狗犬 2008/09/24 17:36 Delete Reply

沙发沙发...XD
dun die dun die，
你会很开心滴～～
1. ╘: ☆ Coolingsky 2008/09/26 09:48 Delete
  
  haha!好早被你霸到沙发哦！哈哈哈，被老板砍就真的很开心了！到时还不死就真的谢天谢地！嘻嘻！

思緒的翻動

Posted 2008/08/19 10:11, Filed under: 冰 ❤ 古怪思緒

胡鬧地胡亂呐喊，荒唐搖晃在馬路上，不在乎別人的眼光，只活在自己的世界中。或許，活在自己的世界中並非件壞事，大前提在於自個兒的事情並沒有影響或禍害到其他人。

可惜，人生在世，哪有所謂的隨心所欲？每每都會被世上許多的枷鎖給捆綁著，自個兒從小到大被灌輸的所謂的正確思想給牽絆著。這是好，還是不好？

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發現我很喜歡丟一大堆問題給別人，然而有時答案早已經存在，只是自己一直在逃避而已。不懂爲何，或許喜歡上呻吟、愛上訴苦，所以無法自拔，總是愛找些有的沒的亂訴一番才舒爽。這樣看來，是不是得了什麽“自尋煩惱愛煩人症”？

看來，症狀好像嚴重許多了。

可是，儅別人有煩惱的時候，我竟然還懂得如何去安慰別人。嗯，空閒太多，所以自尋“娛樂”？這可不是自娛娛人，倒像影響他人多點。

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定義是什麽？突然想起一個人，縂愛把自己的想法套在別人身上。在他身上卻看到了自己的影子。是否我也是這樣？和他一樣嚴重。我承認，某些時候我會很堅持自己的想法是對的，只是怎麽想也不認爲自己的情況會比他嚴重。

還是覺得，人生嘛，就只有自己有資格為自己的人生評價，別人凴什麽來説你這樣過生活是不好是錯的？喜歡平凡的，就平凡地過；愛風光的，就過不一樣的人生；誰也不能說誰的最棒，誰也不能說誰的不好。不是麽？

重要的是，你覺得值得，就真的值得了。

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其實我是不是很難懂的人？

發現我很喜歡製造誤會，把不是自己的一面放給別人看，目前也只有一個人懂我究竟怎麽想，或許說，是全部認識我的人裏面最懂我的人。

她知道何時我是開玩笑，何時我是認真。她知道何時我說的話沒有營養、單純地說廢話，何時的話是心地話。

那又如何？誤會了就誤會，我不喜歡解釋，也並不認爲解釋有用。

反正人認定的事情，就認定了。解釋，他們也只會說是掩飾。

算了，相信的人就會相信，不相信的話，多說也無用。

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那一晚夢見了很多東西，醒來後只能隱隱約約地記得某些細小片斷。

是不是就像人生一樣？經歷過的事情，隨著時間的調淡，而後慢慢淡忘。細節忘了，如果還記得某些比較大或比較重要的事情都已經不錯，如剩下的只是在當時發生的感覺，是否會覺得悲哀？

經歷過的，就算沒有遺留些什麽，也縂好過什麽也沒有經歷過。

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★ 秘密访客 2008/08/19 14:56 Delete Reply

只有管理员能看到的回复.
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/08/21 09:29 Delete
  
  得空找你喝茶~！嘻嘻！
★ 魔女 Constance 2008/08/19 14:58 Delete Reply

我觉得，被太多世上所谓的正确思想给捆绑着，的确有碍于日后的发展。太古板，人生也会少了很多乐趣。
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/08/21 09:30 Delete
  
  對咯！我贊成你說的。嘻嘻！
★ 小萍 2008/08/19 17:25 Delete Reply

就算自己觉得值得，然而错的也是自己。
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/08/21 09:30 Delete
  
  嗯，反正也不會影響他人。
★ dressangel 2008/08/19 22:43 Delete Reply

人生，
的确没有清楚定义的对与错。
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/08/21 09:30 Delete
  
  但是偏偏會有人去定義你做的是對還是錯。

日誌：亂説廢話

Posted 2008/08/06 12:04, Filed under: 冰 ❤ 古怪思緒

最近的我是否是在渾渾噩噩的狀態下度過？

其實也不然，起碼最近都是在追看anime，只是看的都是蠻久之前的了。就比如現在追看的是《海賊王》 - One Piece，而其他在手的動漫似乎沒什麽看頭，就被我擱在一旁涼快了。

又是一個忙碌的時刻。工作接踵而來的同時，似乎又想要逃了。不是因爲工作壓力太大，畢竟有責任就會有壓力，只是似乎在一個沒有背著任何責任的漫長時刻呆了太久了，開始無法適應烈日的照射，只想安份地躲在溫室中平凡度過。

可是，如果人生能如此平凡，我是否又甘心如此度過這種日子？

曾有朋友如此說過：你可不像典型的摩羯座，倒挺像雙重性格的雙子座。

嗯，那我是否遲出世半年呐？哈哈哈哈哈！我反倒希望我是典型的摩羯座，起碼不會被自個兒尋找的煩惱淹沒透頂，窒得難以呼吸！不是麽？

眼角餘光睥見這個禮拜就走、正無所事事的主任，心暗忖何時的我會在衝動之下丟下褫職信後三個月跑人。一年了，真的一年了！想要褫職的念頭重來沒有間斷過，在得知我的主任要走的時候燒得更加旺盛，是否真的會在今年就跑人？其實我還在等待。漫長的等待就快把我給弄跨了，何時才能結束熬人的等待？

終于經過了幾個月的歲月煎熬，讓我明了了一些困惑我許久的事情。明白了卻能如何？餘波侵襲太深，或許該用天山雪蓮才能治療血流過多的傷口以及被邪風侵入的身體。

呼，等待著丟信的那一刻。而我深信，那一刻似乎不遠矣！

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★ 月亮 2008/08/06 12:32 Delete Reply

呵呵呵。。。褫職哦。。。

看你自己想怎么样咯。。。
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/08/07 09:41 Delete
  
  哈哈哈！是咯！要看通勝，看好日子才能褫職咧！哇卡卡卡！
★ 露丝玛丽公主 2008/08/06 12:38 Delete Reply

我是摩羯座的~~ ^^
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/08/07 09:42 Delete
  
  是哦？你幾號？嘻嘻！
2. ╘: ☆ 露丝玛丽公主 2008/08/07 23:19 Delete
  
  1月8日~~
★ ‘’小千*_^" 2008/08/06 14:26 Delete Reply

无言~加把劲吧~anime真的有这么好看meh?
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/08/07 09:42 Delete
  
  好看啊！非常好看！嘻嘻！
★ 疯子 2008/08/06 18:47 Delete Reply

我是双子座的 ^^
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/08/07 09:42 Delete
  
  失敬失敬！嘻嘻！
★ 輝仔 2008/08/06 20:28 Delete Reply

我是~~處男座的>///<
最近很多animation很好看= =
我一個星期要追差不多15套不一樣的animation - -
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/08/07 09:43 Delete
  
  哇老！那麽多！？介紹什麽好看的anime給我好不好？嘻嘻！

Once Again -- Grumbling

Posted 2008/07/29 13:28, Filed under: 冰 ❤ 冰冷世界

Again, I'm slacking off right now as what you guys can tell.

XD XD

[It's lunch hour, guys! Thus, it can't be considered as slacking off, it's just a great skill in fully utilizing time.]

There's nothing much to say, perhaps it's the same as the "Cantonese" version, just don't know why I've such an impulsive to write something nonsense out here. Let me count how long I've been here, umm, it's almost 7 months, right? I've been working for almost 1 year, it's my life here in KL after 3 years studying life in Unimas, Sarawak.

Perhaps you will ask, do you miss the time in Sarawak. I don't know. I will have different answers for different situation. But for now, I don't. I'm even regret to be in Sarawak for that 3 years. What I've got there? Nothing but a certificate indicated that I am a Bachelor degree graduated student. That's it. Is it important? No, at least for me.

Long time ago I thought that I have an ability where most of the people besides me don't have, which is I know what exactly I want. I understood myself so well. Nevertheless, I couldn't say so right now. I have no idea it's because of I wish to deny everything about me, or because of I really don't know who I am anymore.

What I can do is just following my instinct. However, I've never trusted my instinct albeit it is damn accurate. Why shouldn't I trust my own instinct? Don't ask, the answer is not with me.

I've found out a very ridiculous and funny thing happened on me. It seems like relevant to me but they shouldn't relate it to me. Should I keep on escaping and forgetting or facing it? How to face it? There's no such thing called schema in this real world. I believe that everyone has their own perspective and thoughts. No one's here has the right to judge or saying that what they think isn't right. Coz what you think perhaps is wrong too.

For me, happy is the most important thing. As long as what you want or think won't hurt anyone, why don't just follow the little voice in your mind? What is my little voice? Have I ignored it for a long time?

It's been a year, a year after my graduation, there's no good changes on me but all are just mess and gloom. Actually I wish to erase all the memory that I have. Haiz, I haven't recovered yet. Perhaps it's been just a lie for myself past few months. Haha, I feel like I'm now singing the same old tune.

I have no idea anymore on how to make things right. Everything seems so wrong to me. Is it really that out of track? I shouldn't believe at first, I won't be that at last.

Lots of doubts are haunting me by now. Doubts that I couldn't manage to explain and couldn't manage to solve. Perhaps I think too much. Every step is hard to take now, I'm afraid to get lost again. Being alone in the darkness is damn horrifying. I rather not to be success in anything but keep on being a ostrich to hide my head in the sand. I know it's coward, however I rather to take this step although I know I'll be regret.

Now I know, I can't keep any question in my heart. I can only choose to find out the answer, or just forget about it. What if there's no answer and I can't forget about it? It sucks! Keep on escaping from facing the matter is only good for short term for giving you some time to calm down. However, situation will become worse if you continue escaping from something you shouldn't escape from. I know. But I can't do so.

I really wanna shout! How could she do this kind of funny and ridiculous thing? and WHY? It seemed so stupid! Doesn't she know about that? Oh My God, you're older than me but doing this kind of childish thing, I really don't know what I should say. I really don't understand what is your purpose. Do you really have no confidence to yourself that's why you treat me as a threat? Should I be happy since you think that I can threathen you? RIDICULOUS!

I'm looking forward to this weekend. It still has 3 and a half days to go. Sounds long, doesn't it? XD XD

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★ 丽庭 2008/07/29 17:42 Delete Reply

哈!
是的!
快乐最重要1
不管什么地方,总有我们要学习的事物,
觉得自己有进步就好.
学着面对吧,
今天不面对的,
以后还是会遇上的.
1. ╘: ☆ 丽庭 2008/07/29 17:43 Delete
  
  若不能准准抵达,我们也会体谅的啦~
  放心!
  
  巴士,到klang就可以了.
  port klang是吧生港口
  (嘿,别吃了海鲜才过来哟哈哈)
  但要去port klang之前都会经过klang的.
  
  从kl sentral搭巴士到吧生不用一小时就到了,
  快的话,半小时也没问题.
  
  如果怕miss掉站,可以跟司机讲,叫他'关照"一下,
  这招很有效的,百试百中!哈哈
  
  你是...hh吗?
2. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/07/30 09:40 Delete
  
  唉！就是咯，今天不面對，以後還是會遇上，真閑！
★ 丽庭 2008/07/29 17:55 Delete Reply

dayswhite@hotmail.com或gmail或yahoo也可.
呵呵因为有个叫hh的,也是发邮件来
哈哈我倒是没多问她什么呢哈哈
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/07/30 09:43 Delete
  
  對了，我send不到給你耶~！
2. ╘: ☆ 丽庭 2008/07/30 19:52 Delete
  
  咿,
  在你格上写的邮址是对的呀~
  在我自己格上才是错的.
  呃,哎,那就不用这么麻烦啦,
  直接打悄悄留言在我格上就好了.
  这样okay?
  XD
★ kenformer 2008/07/29 19:47 Delete Reply

我英語很差的耶，你怎么就能寫這么多呢。害我不停的用詞典在翻譯。而且看完了也不知道你發生甚么事了，貌似你的心情很不好呢。但是我覺得生活還是不能太悲觀了，要開心點呀，快樂不是別人能給你的。還有就是我也被別人（老中年人）用孩子氣的方式欺負過，不過看開了就好了啊，難道我們也要用孩子氣不成？不對，我們應該用寬大的胸懷來諷刺那些愚蠢的行為，因為我們有寬大的心胸喲!~加油，^ ^. (不要骂我长气呀）
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/07/30 09:44 Delete
  
  哈哈哈，你怎麽會長氣呢？要謝謝你才真呢！嘻嘻，我也很孩子氣啊！但是還是被別人氣到了。不過也是，就現在很努力去忘記了！哈哈，不然苦的還是自己啊~
2. ╘: ☆ 丽庭 2008/07/30 19:54 Delete
  
  wa~
  你还真的是很长气呢!
  哈!
  果然是做老师的料!
  哈!
  跟我一样呀!
  XP
★ Choon Lim 2008/07/30 01:21 Delete Reply

Rain storm is followed by fresh air, just like worry is followed by serenity. Keep your smile :D
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/07/30 09:47 Delete
  
  I always smile! Hahahahaha! Ya, however, the journey from turning the rain storm to fresh air seems like so long away.... XD XD
★ 闻舒 2008/07/30 18:36 Delete Reply

好长的英文文章啊！我的英文不行，但还是把文章看完了，然后感觉似懂非懂咯！

无论如何，祝福你。d=)
1. ╘: ☆ CooLiNgsKy 冰之穎 2008/07/31 09:34 Delete
  
  呵呵呵！謝謝你那麽有耐心看完我寫的廢話，真的謝謝你的祝福。
  也祝福你哦！