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之前的我在忙些什麽呢？除了追戯追anime之外。

那就是......這個啦！

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嘻嘻！第一次編織，所以有點丑，不好意思！

爲何我莫名其妙會跑去編織圍巾呢？其實都是因爲阿囌的關係。那時爽爽跑去和她一起學編織（一天），過後就擱置一個月多了，因爲沒有絨毛綫之類的啊！就在一個機緣巧合下，應該是六月尾吧，買到一本編織圍巾的書和絨毛綫，就開始了我的圍巾旅途了！

不過這個旅途也真“坎坷”。

一，那時候追著兩部連續劇。
二，追著anime。
三，編織292段，34針的圍巾。
四，在圍巾新主人離開之前搞定。（這個月尾）
五，重新再學過怎麽起針、編織之類的。
六，學如何看圖、糾正編錯的針等。
七，每個拜六禮拜都回家，就只有拜一到拜四的晚上時間才能做以上的東西。

呼，但是，阿彌陀佛，我終于完成了！！！沒想到如此沒有毅力的我也可以完成啊！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！果然是天大一件奇事！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！

不過也好，因爲這個圍巾，我知道如何看圖，如何糾正編錯的針，如何接駁（這個還是比較差！）等，全都是從錯誤中領悟回來的！嘻嘻！看來我也蠻聰明嘛！哈哈哈哈！

［涅汗！超級自戀狂！］

嘻嘻，編是編好了，會不會容易脫落我真的不知道，因爲沒有人教我如何在切換絨線的邊緣做適當的處理，所以，我真的很怕會脫綫，一脫綫就完蛋了！

所以哦，如果有脫綫的話，即將身為主人的你記得要跟我講啊！還有，要告訴我會不會保暖哦！我可是特地買適合冬天的絨毛綫的哦~！記得哦！

Again, I'm slacking off right now as what you guys can tell.

XD XD

[It's lunch hour, guys! Thus, it can't be considered as slacking off, it's just a great skill in fully utilizing time.]

There's nothing much to say, perhaps it's the same as the "Cantonese" version, just don't know why I've such an impulsive to write something nonsense out here. Let me count how long I've been here, umm, it's almost 7 months, right? I've been working for almost 1 year, it's my life here in KL after 3 years studying life in Unimas, Sarawak.

Perhaps you will ask, do you miss the time in Sarawak. I don't know. I will have different answers for different situation. But for now, I don't. I'm even regret to be in Sarawak for that 3 years. What I've got there? Nothing but a certificate indicated that I am a Bachelor degree graduated student. That's it. Is it important? No, at least for me.

Long time ago I thought that I have an ability where most of the people besides me don't have, which is I know what exactly I want. I understood myself so well. Nevertheless, I couldn't say so right now. I have no idea it's because of I wish to deny everything about me, or because of I really don't know who I am anymore.

What I can do is just following my instinct. However, I've never trusted my instinct albeit it is damn accurate. Why shouldn't I trust my own instinct? Don't ask, the answer is not with me.

I've found out a very ridiculous and funny thing happened on me. It seems like relevant to me but they shouldn't relate it to me. Should I keep on escaping and forgetting or facing it? How to face it? There's no such thing called schema in this real world. I believe that everyone has their own perspective and thoughts. No one's here has the right to judge or saying that what they think isn't right. Coz what you think perhaps is wrong too.

For me, happy is the most important thing. As long as what you want or think won't hurt anyone, why don't just follow the little voice in your mind? What is my little voice? Have I ignored it for a long time?

It's been a year, a year after my graduation, there's no good changes on me but all are just mess and gloom. Actually I wish to erase all the memory that I have. Haiz, I haven't recovered yet. Perhaps it's been just a lie for myself past few months. Haha, I feel like I'm now singing the same old tune.

I have no idea anymore on how to make things right. Everything seems so wrong to me. Is it really that out of track? I shouldn't believe at first, I won't be that at last.

Lots of doubts are haunting me by now. Doubts that I couldn't manage to explain and couldn't manage to solve. Perhaps I think too much. Every step is hard to take now, I'm afraid to get lost again. Being alone in the darkness is damn horrifying. I rather not to be success in anything but keep on being a ostrich to hide my head in the sand. I know it's coward, however I rather to take this step although I know I'll be regret.

Now I know, I can't keep any question in my heart. I can only choose to find out the answer, or just forget about it. What if there's no answer and I can't forget about it? It sucks! Keep on escaping from facing the matter is only good for short term for giving you some time to calm down. However, situation will become worse if you continue escaping from something you shouldn't escape from. I know. But I can't do so.

I really wanna shout! How could she do this kind of funny and ridiculous thing? and WHY? It seemed so stupid! Doesn't she know about that? Oh My God, you're older than me but doing this kind of childish thing, I really don't know what I should say. I really don't understand what is your purpose. Do you really have no confidence to yourself that's why you treat me as a threat? Should I be happy since you think that I can threathen you? RIDICULOUS!

I'm looking forward to this weekend. It still has 3 and a half days to go. Sounds long, doesn't it? XD XD